This site has gone through a lot of changes over the years. From being written
in Flask and Bottle to moving on to static site generators. I have used and
tested probably 10s of them my now. From homebrew solutions to the biggest and
the baddest. From Bash scripts to Node.js disasters. I've seen some things, no
doubt. Not all bad.
I have been closely observing the web and where the trends are going, and I
don't like what I see. Instead of internet being this weird place where
experimentation is happening, it all became stale and formulized. Boring,
actually. Really boring. And sad. Where is that old, revolutionary FU spirit I
remember? It's still there, I know. But it's being drowned by the voices of
mediocrity and formulaic boredom.
It almost feels like that the internet stopped for 10 years and only now
something has started happening. With all the insanity around the world. People
hating people without actual reasons, just because it's fashionable to hate and
crowd is saying so. Sad state of affairs.
All this is contributing to this overall negativity masked as apathy. Everybody
walking in lockstep. Instead of being creative and bold, we are just
re-inventing the world and making the same mistakes. Maybe, just maybe, some
things are good enough and there is no need to try to be too smart for our own
good. After N-attempts, maybe something should click inside our heads to maybe
say: "This thing, opinion, etc. is actually really good, and even after several
attempts it still holds."
The older I get, the more careful I am of my own thoughts and why I think the
way I think. More and more, I try to understand people with opposite
opinions. Far from perfect, but closer to bearable. And then I see people
hearing or reading a thing on internet and let's fucking goooooo! Strong
opinions are a sign of a weak and uneducated mind. I am more and more sure of
this.
It's gotten to a point where you can with great certainty deduce a person's
personality based on one or two opinions. How boring have we become. No wonder
people can't talk to each other. These would be very quick conversations anyway.
I just got remembered of a song, "Hi
Ren". The ending talks about being
stiff and not being able to dance. Such an amazing metaphor. And we as people
have gone so far, we can't even walk or even crawl normally anymore. We have
forgotten that the most beautiful things in life have a great deal of
uncertainty about them. We want instant gratification. Not only that, but we
want absolute obedience. Complete control over others, because we have zero
control of ourselves. And all the lies we could tell ourselves will not help us
out of this situation.
It is funny how I catch myself from time to time being a complete idiot. It's
like having an outer body experience. I can see myself being an idiot, and
cannot stop myself. It serves as a learning lesson to stop before speaking. To
think before saying. And to crawl before walking.
So there is still time. We can dance once more. All we need to do is stop for a
second. Me and you. Us two is a start. Let's not try to change the world, but
rather nudge ourselves just a tiny bit. And if we only did that?! Just
imagine. Each of us nudged ourselves a small, tiny bit, the world would heal. If
we would just put down the phones and ignored Internet for a day or two. Put
visiting websites that feed on us on hold. Listened to just one sentence and try
to understand it from a person who we completely disagree with. I truly believe
that this is possible.
Life is about suffering and joy. And instead of wishing suffering on others and
excepting joy for yourselves, we should for a brief moment want suffering for
ourselves and wish joy on others. Wouldn't that be an amazing sight to see?
I caught myself hating on Rust. And I deeply thought about it afterward. Why did
I do it? It is obviously not for me. So why the hell was I being so negative
towards it? I think that I know the answer. I was negative because that is
easy. Because it's much easier to hate on things than to say to yourself: "Well,
you know what? This is not for me. I will focus on creation and not
destruction. This is who I want to be. This is what fills me with joy and
purpose." Where joy is keeping me happy and purpose scares the shit out of me
and keeps me honest. This is who I want to be. Admit to myself when I am wrong
and accept the faults that I have without reservation and with courage march on.
I just realized that this blog post is a sort of therapy for me. It's
cathartic. Going thought the history of this site and remembering all the
decisions and annoyances that came with it. When I was cursing at the tools. And
time moved on, and the site is still here. It serves as a reminder that
perseverance wins at the end. If we just let things go.
This came with a decision that simplifying life and removing all the unnecessary
negativity is key. Rather than worrying about what the internet is saying, what
the world is trying to take from you, you are the only one who can say no. And
create instead of destroy.
I don't have an ending for this post, so I will say this. We live in the most
amazing times in the recorded history, and we should be internally grateful for
it. Create and study, this should be my mantra. Just create and let the world
happen. And when you feel yourself to be too certain, stop and check how deep in the
shit you are already. Strong opinions are a sign of a weak and uneducated
mind. Hate and disdain is for the weak.